Never Underestimate...

Thursday, May 6, 2004 // 01:28 p.m.

I feel: *shrugs* no idea

Aah, nothin' much goin' on really. except that schools almost out. My job hasn't really changed much, except gettin' more boring. And the people that go there havn't gotten any smarter either. What sucks is now i'm losing interest in playin' my games, I just get these feelings that I want to be doin' something else, like something with my friends. But for the most part I'm stuck in my damn house.

I got a phone a couple of days ago. It's pretty cool, I already set up the ringers, screen savers, and games. Having this phone makes some things alot easier. Like the fact that now my friends can always get ahold of me even if that damn person living in my house called Rafa is on the internet. And I can call anyone when I need to, I don't have to find another phone to call from, or wait to be able to use one. Now all I need is a freakin' car.

As of late, I've been feelin' like there's somethin' missin' from my life. I'm not sure what it is, but this feelin' comes up every now and then. Like I'm missin' out on somethin'. I definetly should go out more, but without a car my options are very limited. It just seems everythin' goes right back to me needin' a car. I don't know, maybe it's just me. I just feel helpless, like there's nothin' I can do. *sighs and slumps*

Posted by Nathan

Monday, April 19, 2004 // 12:49 p.m.

I feel: weee! *swings from the cieling*

Hmmm....lets see I got another new game called Life Line. It's pretty cool, I've gotten into it. It's more of a word game really, sometimes your asked if you can think of several items, and you actually have to come up with them.

Work is gonna be a breeze for this week, I only work 3 days, and I've already worked one of them. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, and Friday are mine, muahaha. AAARRRGHGH! I want a car already, I really need to apply for financial aid, maybe then I'll be able to get one. Having a car would simplify my everyday life so much, I'm always depending on other people to take me places, I really want the freedom to just go when I want not have to wait for a ride. And now my hamsters are bein' real pains-in-the-ass. They keep playin' at night keepin' me up sometimes. I end up just putting them into the hamster balls to keep them from making so much noise, and I leave them that way overnight. *shrugs* what can you do?

I really want to start goin' out more or actually goin' out, I should say. I'm usually cooped up in my house, and before I graduated from highschool, I thought it would be a blast, but it's definetly not all it's cut out to be. You can't always find something to eat, you loose track of time, you get bored of your games faster, or you just end up lyin' down somewhere. a real buzzkill, if you know what I mean. (though I've only had one in my whole life) well i'm out, c-ya L8erZ!

Posted by Nathan

Thursday, April 15, 2004 // 09:40 a.m.

I feel: Whatever . . .

Heh, I've so far had a good week, of course that may be because I've had so many days off from work, it's been great, I had meant to call Kat at her house Wednesday but I ended up doin' chores instead. That sucked, hmm, lets see what else,... Well I've gotten my avatar on go-gaia to look more like the way I wanted but I still feel somethin's missin'. There isn't much that goes on in the life of Nathan, just a bunch of ludicrous, or however you spell that, things in an everday perspective. I've got to go to work today, and you know what, I don't mind it at all. If you ask me, I think that's cool, when you don't mind goin' to work.

I've gotten a bit farther in some of the new games I bought, Legaia 2 is pretty cool, it just takes alot of gold to buy the weapons and armor, the Gundam game is pretty cool, I've gotten pretty good at it with more fluid movement. RAD is cool to, you can upgrade your mech with different moves and better armor, of course this takes alot of Yen to do. Well enough of the games.

As for personal life, heh, nothin' goin' on there. Lately I've noticed though that when I think about it, if someone shows me the slightest interest... I don't know, it just makes me sound desperate, it sucks. That is definetly not the way I wanted to be, so I've been tryin' to stop thinkin' about it, it's been hard but I think I'm gettin' better at it. And the funny thing is the way I used to think, it used to be that I thought it was so hard to go up to a girl you didn't know and just start talkin'. But I've found that to be not true, it's actually quite easy, I've learned this at work of course, I know just about all the girls there, and am good friends with a few, they always say hi to me when I say hi to them, even some of the ones that seem like, for lack of a better word, "bitches." I guess you could say it's "food for thought." well I think i'm done, c-ya L8erZ!

Posted by Nathan

Tuesday, April 13, 2004 // 09:22 a.m.

I feel: Great....hehe yeah right!

Dang, here's a bit on what's happened since last I posted, on Wednesday of last week, while i was at work, I caught a fever. That sucked, then the next day the fever broke but I was left with the flu. and I've been sick since then, so here I am, still feelin' crapy, ooh well, what can yo do.

*shrugs* on a lighter note I have 4 days off this week, definetly gonna help. Oh yeah, last week I met up with someone at work who hadn't been back to work for 2 months. She's pretty cool, and now she's back, working in a department across from mine. I've found that you get an incredible high when you walk around your workplace and anywhere you go, everyone knows you and say "hi", "hey", or "what's up?". it's awesome, and the past few days at work havn't been that bad either, I had a good time at work yesterday. don't really know why but hey, who's complainin'.

Anyways, I got some new games once again, I got RAD (Robot Alchemic Drive), Gundam something, and Legaia 2. They're each pretty cool. I think that's about it for now, c-ya L8erZ!

Posted by Nathan

Tuesday, April 6, 2004 // 01:14 p.m.

I feel: OK

Jeez it's been awhile, well not much has happened except for the fact that my job is one major pain in the ass. I mean can people really get any dumber. Aw well, nuff said. I've been having fun on go-gaia and if any of you want to try it out, i definetly recomend it its go-gaia.com, go for it.

Hmm...oh yeah, my dad came over and took us bowling, I did pretty good considering how long it had been since I last bowled. Played three games straight, it was cool. For those who don't know, it's rare that I get to do anything with my dad, he's either too busy or probably forgets, but it doesn't matter, I still think of him as my dad. Well, think i'm done with what mattered, c-ya *salutes*

Posted by Nathan

Thursday, March 18, 2004 // 11:52 a.m.

I feel: Trapped

Wow, just when I think I have to take another math test the teacher doesn't show, hahaha, it's kinda funny since he's done that twice already. Sad really. But what can you do, just another day that goes by in the life of Nathan. Hehe, and it's as boring as it sounds; school, chores, work, eat, sleep, and then maybe hang out with friends or use a computer. *sigh* Not much I "can" do about it either, just a set schedule.

Oh yeah, I got a few new games recently for the PS2: Tenchu: Wrath of Heaven, Shinbi, Defender, and Dragon Ball Z: Budokai 2. What sucks about that is that it's hard to know which game you want to play first, so I just go with what I "feel" like playin'.

On a sader note, my mom suddenly got this idea in her head, and is now gonna start charging me rent for stayin' at the house. *scream* It sucks, now I want to move out, me of all people. It's frustrating, because i'm tryin' save money for school, and maybe a car, but now that this is coming up, it's like how the hell will I manage it, *kicks a door* I just don't know what to do, I feel so damn trapped I don't know which way is up anymore. (Emphasis on trapped)

And work isn't helping either, all these stupid people, it so annoying. They pick up cloths, try them on, and then don't want them so they throw them wherever they want, leaving me with a mess that I have to clean up. And then they ask all these f#cking questions that don't make any sense, or they try to return cloths that didn't fit, what the f*ck man. It's simple: just find the size you need, make sure it is that size, and take that one, don't just grap one and go you f^cking dumbasses. But of course, there is no asylum for me, they just keep coming and coming, well enough of me b!tch!n'. I'll post later, not much left that's happened. C-ya L8erZ!

Posted by Nate or Nathan or whatever you'd like to call me ; )

Tuesday, March 3, 2004 // 09:10 a.m.

I feel: Con-fu-sed

Booya! Hehe, I really don't know what to feel, it's like i've been given an award or something. LOL! Thanks Kat, like i said in the email, i really do appreciate it!

Actually lately i'be been feeling out-of-it. if that's what you'd call it, i don't really know why, except that it sucks. College classes are cool, i got lucky when i got these teachers, they at least have some sense of humor.

My job is another story, one of the people i work with put it best, he said "The answer to all the problems around here is that people are assholes." Hehe, i completely agree with him. If you didn't already know, i work at J.C. Penny at the mall in the Men's Dockers department. and as for the people, good god it sucks, you try to fix one table of clothing, go or look away for one minute, and when you come back that same table is a mess once again, aaarrrrrggghghhghh! *mumble**mumble* v_v Oh well, what can you do?

That feeling out-of-it thing i still havn't figured out, but i'll look into it. As for friends, i think i have the best one's in the world, don't mean to brag, but i think i do. Though of course, like most people, they have their "inner deamons," if you will, I wouldn't trade them for anything. *sigh* I just wish i could spend more time with them...and as you can tell by reading this whole blog, i'm a jumble of emotions, hehe. As in the words of Vegeta from DBZ, "FREAK!" Lmao. Oh well, i'm just very happy, this is my first true entry, Woohoo! It may sound corny but hey, that's just me. I think i'll end it here, don't have much else to say so, I'll be chatting with ya L8erZ! and Kat, hope to see you Friday.

Posted by Nate or Nathan or whatever you'd like to call me ; )